It just keeps on getting gooder and gooder!!!

Yes my blog title is not correct grammar, I meant it that way! My uncle Russ used to say this and still does when he preaches about all the great things our Lord has done for us and continues to do. It literally keeps on getting "gooder and gooder"

I find myself amazed at how God chooses to bless my little family. He continues to surprise us just when we least expect it. Charlie and I were beyond blessed with Parker and I honestly thought the Lord out did himself then, but on no I was completely wrong. He has once again shown Charlie and I just how great He is and we are seeing daily His plan for our lives put in motion,

Now with all the being said I'm hoping Ive built up the anticipation so when you read just how God has blessed us again you will be just as excited we were when we figured it out too!!

God's plan for our life isn't just loving on Parker, we will be given the opportunity to love and care for his older brother Zayden. Yes Zayden will be coming to stay with us temporary for now but we are hoping and praying for a permanent stay!! We are hoping to pick him up very soon and bring him home to his new room with his new bed, new clothes, new toys and more love than one little boy could imagine. We are both nervous and excited to welcome him into our family. Im beyond ecstatic that Parker gets to finally be ( temporary for now) with his biological brother. I'm honored that Andrea has trusted us once again to love one of her sons and I am blown away that my Lord and Savior is blessing us once again greater than I ever imagined!! I never knew that when Charlie and I began praying for a baby this is where we would be. I never dreamed that all our heartache and disappointments would lead to such pure joy and greatness. Our cup truly runnth over. We are so so blessed. I have no idea how we will manage a two year old and a 9 month old, i have no idea how we will afford it, I have no idea what the next few weeks, months and years will hold but I know who holds tomorrow and whose plan is greater than mine. Its a wonderful feeling to know that we are taken care of by our Lord.

As of now we are waiting on all the paperwork to get signed to bring Zayden here. Please pray for patience. He's currently in a foster home and they assure me he is doing great. It hopefully won't be too much longer till he is with us. If he is only with us for a while then we want it to be the best "while" ever. We hope to shoe him so much love and teach him as much about Jesus as we can.

We have been bombarded with gifts for Zayden, clothes and toys and shoes. We are so blessed to have such amazing family and friends who are going to love and care for him as if we've had him forever!! We cannot thank each of you enough for your continued love, prayers and support for our growing family! I pray that God blesses each of you ten fold!!!

With all this being said im asking...pleading for each one that reads this to please keep praying for Andrea. She is such a wonderful person and I pray she sees the joy she has brought to our lives. I pray that she has peace with her decisions and seeks the Lords guidance in all that she does. She has lots to do before Zayden can go back with her.
And if she is reading this now I hope she can see, read and tell just how much we love her boys and how much they have blessed our lives!!

a time to remember....and rejoice

 

October is pregnancy and infant loss month. Today is the national day to remember these people who have been through such a tragedy. Tonight at 7:00 they are asking that all light a candle in rememberence of lose lost.

As I sit here on my mini vacation with my family im reminded of a year ago when I was at home lighting my own candle for my babies lost. I remeber sitting in the dark and looking at the flickering light and trying to make since of what God had put us through and what his plans were. Not knowing that in a few short weeks our prayers would be answered in the form of an amazing little boy. For me it was pregnancy loss, it was hard, it was painful and it was the hardest thing ive ever had to do. Looking back at our long journey I realized I would do it all again a million times if it meant in the end I would have Parker.  So today as I watch my parents and my inlaws as well as myself and Charlie love my Parker uncondtionally, I will contiune to miss my sweet babies and take hope that one day I will see them again. Im forever gratful to The Lord for sending Parker to us at just the right time, for he saved me from my depression and dispair. He has raised my spirits and has taught me that The Lord does hear our prayers and does care for us. So to others who were are in the same shoes i was in one year ago I tell you to have faith, The Lord is still on the right side of our God and hears each cry, pleas and prayer we pray for our future babies!!!!

Its been too long!

 

 

I know, I know, its been a while since Ive blogged! Ive had so many people tell me (including Andrea:)) that they are waiting for another blog. I know many of you already know and I'm quickly learning that when you have a baby there not a whole lot of "me time" to go around. Usually when I get a chance to do anything...its sleep :)

June brought us many celebrations, Charlie turned the big 30!!! We celebrated his birthday the same weekend as fathers day! We showered Charlie with some clothes and golf shoes and then we gave him personalized golf balls that had Parker's name on it and Father's Day 2013! He loved them! Parker and I are very lucky to have such a wonderful christian man in our lives! He truly is an amazing dad and father. The month of June also was the birthday of Parker's birth mom Andrea! We were able to get her some cute gifts (and of course Zayden too :)) We hope she had a wonderful birthday that she truly deserved!

July was another fun month! Charlie and I celebrated our 5th year of marriage. Ive been so blessed to be married to my best friend and soul mate. We also celebrated Parker's first 4th of July. That's one of my favorite holidays because I love fireworks!!! Parker wasn't really crazy about the noise but he loved all the colors! And of course July also brings my birthday!!! I celebrated with good friends and my wonderful baby! Hes the best gift I could of ever asked for :)

July was also a wonderful month because Parker was legally adopted!!!! We celebrated and the court house and continued our celebration that night at our house. We had an O "fish" al adoption party!! He is legally ours now and finally has a social security number. All of our friends and family came out to celebrate with us. We are so blessed to have so many who have prayed for us and continue to pray for us.

August was a busy traveling month, Charlie had quite a few golf tournaments out of town and Parker and I were able to go and watch and spend time with family. Parker loves to watch Charlie play golf and he loves to ride in the cart too!! We went to the zoo, which Parker loved but daddy was a little worried about him petting all the animals :) We also took him to see Sesame Street live and he loved it! He loves puppets so all the characters are hilarious to him but his favorite of course is Elmo!

 

Parker spent his summer either in his kiddy pool, momo's pool, the river, or the water park. Needless to say he loves the water and being outside :)
He is just growing and growing so fast. He's all over the place, not yet crawling but he gets on all fours and rocks back and forth and then ends up rolling where he needs to go! He loves to bounce and bounce. He's crazy about his cousin Daylee, he loves her to pieces! He is the happiest baby of all time! And of course makes me incredibly happy!

Hes had quite a few ear infections since he was born but the past couple of months hes had them really bad. We have a referral to an ENT and are hoping to get tubes put in as soon as possible! Please pray that this helps and will take care of the problem!

Charlie and I are so blessed to be the parents of this wonderful boy! He makes our lives complete! I read in another blog about adoption that people will come up to you and say "that baby has no idea how lucky they are" and all you can think as his parents is "no we're the lucky ones" and there is never a more true statement. Parker isn't the lucky one, we are!!! Sometimes it feels like my heart just may explode with love for that boy. I think what we went through before Parker and it seems like just a distant memory. That boy has come into my life and wiped all my pain away, he's given me laughter and love and joy that I thought was gone. He's made me a better person, mom and most of all Parker Taylor saved me from me. He's taught me infinite love and the moment I laid eyes on him I became his mom and I would do anything to make sure he was taken care of. There is nothing greater than being a mom but there is nothing greater than being Parker's mommy!!

Please continue to pray for Andrea and Zayden. They have both been on my heart so heavy these past few weeks. I pray that she continues to have peace and will continue to go to GLAD for their wonderful services! We love you Andrea and Zayden!!

 

 

 

 

Finally they said...."Happy Mother's Day Lynsey"

Its been a while since I have been able to blog. And I feel that after this weekend its just a perfect time to pick it back up!!!

After suffering through 4 years of Mother's Day and not being a mommy, I just experienced my first one where people said, "Happy Mother's Day Lynsey" Ill tell ya it was one of the best days of my life. My world is completely perfect because I'm a mommy now! I have waited for this day for so long that its bitter sweet to finally stand at my church when they recognized all the mommies!! I stood up and held my sweet angel who cooed and kicked and I just praised my Jesus for this amazing gift!!!

Charlie and Parker gave me a beautiful necklace that is a mother holding her baby. It was so beautiful and perfect for my first Mother's Day. I was awaken to my boys bringing me breakfast in bed and Charlie and I laid beside Parker as he serenaded us with his beautiful voice, telling us who knows what but it was perfect music to my hears!! To see and hear the angel that will one day call me mommy made this day wonderful. I'm forever grateful to have such a wonderful baby to call mine!!

I received lots of wonderful gifts this weekend but none better than Parker, he makes my world go round. I feel everyday that I cant thank the Lord enough for bringing us to him! My cup runs over this weekend as I'm reminded of how far we've come and how blessed we are. My Jesus gave me the sweetest, happiest, most amazing little boy in the world! This has been the best Mother's Day ever, I pray for many more and that I will never ever forget this feeling of fulfillment!!

My sweet Parker is just growing and growing! He is rolling over, talking and trying his hardest to sit up! He has a tooth already in and more on the way. He just eats his fingers and is slobbering like crazy! He is 14lbs and 25in long and growing and growing. We started baby food this week and he loves it!! I believe he will be an eater!!

Ive been blessed to be able to share our story to two different groups who asked me to come. I'm overjoyed to be able to share with others just how great our God is and how patience and faith will bring such joy. Ive been able to speak with so many who are hurting due to infertility and miscarriage and tell them there is hope and joy will come in the morning. I may never know exactly why Charlie and I had to suffer all those years but I do know that God is using our suffering for his glory and to me that makes it all worth it!!!

Please continue to pray for Andrea, may she continue to have peace about her decision and that God will bless her because of it!!! We are forever grateful for her and her choice to let us raise Parker!!

Joy comes in the morning

One year ago this week mom and I revived the news that the embryos that were implanted in us both did not survive and we were both in the process of miscarrying. I remember my heart breaking, I've never known such pain. I remember thinking valentines day would forever be ruined because I would always remember my pain and heart ache.
I remember the day after Charlie had to go to work and I laid in the bed screaming out in such pain, I begged him to stay with me and hold me to take the pain away! My heart was broken into. I had no idea how I was ever going to get up and go on with my life! I remember the scripture in psalms that says " weeping may endure for a night but JOY comes in the morning" I knew my joy would come, I didn't know when or how long I had to wait but I trusted that God would bring me through and my hearts desire would be met!!

Here I am one year later holding the most amazing valentine ever!!! God heard my cry, he gave me the desire to be a mom, he remembered his promise!! Morning came and JOY followed!!! What an amazing morning it was!!! Parker is the most wonderful thing to ever come into our lives!!! He brings us such joy and happiness!! I can't imagine my life without him!!!

I've always said that Charlie would be an amazing father but I had no idea just how great he would be!! It's amazing to see your husband become a father!!! He's such a great dad and Parker adores him!!! I love to listen to him talk to Parker and watch his face light up with such love!! We are so blessed this valentines day to be sharing it with our angel!!!

Gods timing is perfect, his desires are perfect and his promises are perfect!!! we will forever be grateful to The Lord for answering our prayers and leading Andrea to us!!!

The day my life changed forever

On January 2nd 2013 my entire world changed forever! A beautiful 6 pound 11 ounce baby boy came into this world and into my heart! I have never known such love. Parker Taylor has been the best blessing and such a wonderful way to end this crazy, hard, emotional yet amazing journey!

At 3:22 I stood beside Andrea as she pushed and push our little boy into this world. She was amazing, Im not sure I could of been as strong as she was! Once he was out Andrea let me cut the umbillical cord! It was the most amazing feeling ever. I watched as they weighed him and I held his little hand. My heart was so overjoyed, it felt as if I was dreaming. Charlie, Parker and I took our first family photo.

After he was cleaned up I was able to breast feed him. It was the most incredable feeling to have him skin to skin with me and be able to provide for him already. He has the most amazing face, its absoulty precioues. He is perfect, every little inch of him is perfect. Im not sure Charlie and I could of created a more perfect baby on our own.

We had to stay in the hospital till Friday and then we had to stay in a hotel till papers were signed and we could cross state lines. We are now finally home and enjoying every minute of parenthood. I cant wait to teach him new things and watch him grow.

Four years ago I would of never dreamed this is how I would be a mommy. But im so glad that Gods plan was better than mine because he sure knew what he was doing. Parker is the perfect addition to our lives. He makes the world go round and I am forever thankful for Andrea and her amazing gift!!

Please keep Andrea in your prayers. She is such a strong and amazing women. She may never know just how precious she is to us. She will always be apart of our lives and we will forever love her for what she did. I pray she will know her true worth and be so proud of the decision she made for us!