Saturday, January 28, 2012

The two week wait!

It all comes down to what a journey! On Wednesday mom and I along with our small fan club :) went to put in our beautiful eggs. Once we got there Dr.Gentry told us that out of our 7 fertilized eggs 6 of them were grade "a" (they grade the eggs, a, b, c's obviously "a" being the best) He also told us that they all looked very good. In his words "somebody should get pregnant with these eggs". The last IVF we did, this was one of our bigger problems and one of the reasons with why it didn't work.So we were very very happy to hear this news. So he did want to put 2 in mom and 2 in me. That leaves us with 2 left over to freeze. (we wont know if they froze for another few days) 
Mom got to go first, dad and I got to stay in the room to see the transfer. We were supposed to be there with a moderate to full bladder but mom didn't start drinking her water till we got there so her bladder wasn't quite moderate yet, this and because of some scar tissue from her c section with me caused about a 3 to 4 minute panic. He had quite a bit of trouble getting through her cervix. He ended up getting some extra tools and finally after what I know was a very painful process, 2 wonderful eggs were placed in her uterus. I remember sitting there watching my sweet mom go through so much pain for me. My heart broke into, I just prayed and prayed that God would intervene and help it not be so painful. Afterwords when it was just dad and I we both looked at each other and he said " I thought God was closing the door." and I did too. Still not 100% sure as to why that happen I know that God was there and Dr. Gentry was very please with the placement of the eggs. I got to video tape the transfer and we were also given pictures. Here is the 2 eggs that were placed in mom. The little whit line beside the "x" is where they were placed.

After mom was finished and resting they took me back, thankful my transfer was a lot easier. Mine took about 3 minutes total. He was also very pleased with the egg placement. Charlie got to video tape mine as well and we also got a picture of our two sweet babies. Mine look likes two white dots beside the "x"

After my transfer we were both in recovery for 30 minutes, then we were able to leave. Once we were at home we were to be on bed rest for the next two days. It was raining when it was time to leave so the boys went a got the cars for us. When dad came in to get us he said "Lynsey you'll never guess what song is playing on the radio right now." Yep, it was "Oh how he loves" by the David Crowder band. GOD WINK!!!!
 Charlie and dad and Melissa took such good care of us. We were feed very very well. The boys did get a little irritated when they got the kitchen all cleaned up and then we asked for more food. However, they say they were happy to do it!
Thursday we went to moms house and my sweet Gram came and took good care of us. We have been showered with food, cards, texts, and calls. We have been so taken care of these past few days. Our friends and families have taken such good care of us. Melissa stayed with us Friday and her and Sarah cooked us a great supper. We haven't needed anything. It is so nice to have so many people who love us so much!

I remember waking up Wednesday morning and looking on facebook, and it was blown up with prayers and kind words for mom and I. I just sat down and cried. We are so grateful for the support, the best thing that you can do for someone who is going through this, is support them. We also had a group of amazing women that did a prayer circle for us at the beauty shop. I cant even begin to tell you how much that means to us. To go into such an event with so much prayer, its like flying. You feel like you can touch the sky! We will forever and ever be grateful for each and every one of you who have supported us. 

So now we are in the two week wait. We have to wait to whole long long weeks to find out what we both already know :) But still we do have to make it newsworthy with a blood test. We ask that you continue to pray for the 4 embryos that are attaching and growing inside us. I pray that they will one day get to read this blog and see just how loved they really were, before they were ever created!!!!!
God bless!!!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Dear mom,

Dear Mom,
Tomorrow is our big day. Ive had all day to ponder and think about what is about to happen. Ive tried to think all day what I could get for you to say "thank you" but when I really think about it, what do you give the women who is about to sacrifice once again for me to have happiness. I wish I could buy you the world in return for what your going to do for me, but with a husband like Charlie we both know that wont happen, too expensive. :) All I could come up with was a letter to at the very least try and express my gratitude for what you are doing for us. So I'm going to try my best to get through this letter with as dry of eyes as possible.

Twenty-six years ago I'm sure the sight of a positive pregnancy test wasn't exactly what you would consider a miracle in the making. I can only imagine what you and dad were feeling and thinking. I can only imagine what was going through you head. As I think about what you went through, I first want to say thank you for choosing me. Even though it isn't in you to think that you wouldn't keep me, you still did. That would be the first of MANY sacrifices you've made for me. I'm sure it wasn't easy when people found out that two un wed teens are having a baby. I cant imagine the things that were said to you and the things that hurt your feelings. I thank you for choosing to marry my dad, and to make a life for me. I know that twenty-six years ago you could never imagine that the miracle inside you was only the beginning of what was to come.
Thank you mom for continuing your education so that you could provide a life for me. Thank you for all the times you stayed up late, went to study groups and took weekend classes so that you could show me what hard work and dedication is all about. Thank you mom for pushing and pushing yourself  to teach me that hard work does pay off. Thank you for working extra hours so we could have extra money for my "oreos" Thank you for always, always, putting me first above anything else you wanted. I have no idea what that was like for you and dad. You both always had time for me and always showered me with your love!
Thank you mom for staying with my dad through think and thin. Thank you for showing me what a loving christian wife is about. Thank you for teaching me what married life is supposed to be. Thank you mom for taking me to church every Sunday and every Wednesday. Thank you for helping lead me to the Lord. Thank you mom for pushing me every night to do my homework, and brush my teeth, and pick up my clothes. Thank you mom for listening to me when I had fights at school with my friends, or when a stupid boy broke my heart. Never, never where you not there with your shoulder out ready for me to cry on. Thank you for going to EVERY ball game I cheered, EVERY cheer competition I competed in and cheering for me the whole time!

Now even though this letter is to you, I still do need to stop because we both know we wouldn't be here if it weren't for dad. Thank you to my wonderful dad who gave up so much for both of us, he is the reason we are both still standing. God blessed me with two wonderful parents who love each other and has shown me what a godly relationship should be.

Tomorrow at 1230, I will once again add to this list of "thank yous" Tomorrow, God willing two of mine and Charlie's wonderful eggs will be implanted into you. You will hopefully carry one (or more) of your grandchildren. WOW how many people can say that!!! As if you could possibly do more for me, you go and help me out again. Thank you mom for going above and beyond your call of duty of motherhood. Thank you for putting your body through so much, thank you for taking each pill, and letting dad "shoot you up" :) Charlie and I will forever be grateful for what you have done.
No matter what happens, if this works or not I want you to know that I can never ever repay you for what you have done. I hope and pray that in the next few weeks there will be heartbeats all around. I cannot wait to tell your grandchildren what you did for them. You are my hero and I will eternally grateful for what you have done!!!
all my love,

Monday, January 23, 2012

Hold on tight, cause here we go....

Well this is it, the time has come. This long awaited journey is beginning and we cant wait to see how it goes. Friday morning bright and early Charlie, mom, dad, Cathy and I made our way to Evansville to retrieve some eggs. When we got their Charlie and I were taken back to the room where the eggs would be removed. He was able to be in the room with me, they gave me fentanyl and versed which didn't knock me out but it did relax me. I was able to watch on the screen when he went in and took out each egg. It was something that I don't think I will ever forget. From the right side they removed 13 eggs, wow! When he moved to the left side they told Charlie he could video if he wanted, which he did. However when he went to the left side there was a huge blood vessel that was in the way of the 3 eggs. He tried every direction to get them but he said if he went in and got them I would be in the hospital and it just wasn't worth it. So we ended up with 13 eggs, which is still great! I recovered for about 2 hours and we were sent on our way. They told me to stay up on my pain meds because those 3 eggs they couldn't get would drop and it would be painful!

On Saturday around 1130 we finally got the call. Of the 13 eggs we have 7 fertilized eggs. So from Friday until Wednesday when we go to implant they will let them grow in the pea tree dish. So right now we have to pray that these 7 are growing and maturing so they will be ready to implant. On Wednesday he will tell us just how good each egg is and how many he wants to implant in each of us. We are excited and ready to see how this goes.

Its now that I start to get nervous and anxious. But I have to stop and remember God has brought us this far He wont leave us now. We are so excited to know that on Wednesday mom and I both will be soooo close to being pregnant. It seems so surreal, we've waited so long for this and here it is. In just a few short weeks we will know if all this hard work and prayers paid off.

Once again I want to say a big thank you to all of the prayers, text, calls and kind words. We are so extremely blessed with amazing people who are always thinking of us. We've received so many precious gifts that we will hold dear to our hearts. We have 2 amazing people Brittany and Ashlee who are selling decals for us. I fill like every time I turn around someone else is helping us out or giving us an encouraging word. I thank God for sending these people in our lives. Thank you doesn't even seem appropriate. But we are truly grateful for all of you!!!

Please continue to pray for our sweet little 7, as they grow and mature into beautiful eggs. Please remember us on Wednesday around 1230 as both mom and I will be implanted and let the next journey begin........... 

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

The time is.....NOW!

This week has been super crazy, doctor appointments, ultrasound, and blood work. Today mom and I both had to go to get blood work and mom had to have a ultrasound too. Everything looks great with mom, they said they wanted her cervix to be at least 7 and today it measured 8.9! Perfect!( We learned today that the thicker the cervix the better the egg will take) so we are very pleased with what we saw today!

This week my eggs have been growing perfectly, on Monday we had 4 of them measuring at 19 cm and 5 measuring at 18cm.Which is great, because they want the eggs to be at least 20 cm before they take them.Yesterday I had Charlie take a picture of my poor belly, I'm so bloated. On Tuesday my ovaries were so enlarged they were smashing my uterus.
 So after today's appointment I'm pleased to announce that we will be doing our retrieval on Friday morning. We are so excited that we will be getting this process started a day early. We all know that it is because of all the prayers that this is going so smoothly.

Please keep the prayers coming the retrieval will be at 8:00 Friday morning and our transfer will be on Wednesday. I'm excited, nervous and anxious all at the same time. God has had his hand in all of this and I couldn't be happier knowing that we are doing his will. God is so good and we are so excited to see what He is going to do with us.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Count your Blessings

Bright and early this morning we had to go to the doctor for our first ultrasound to see just how many eggs we had. My bloodwork came back great on Thursday, which meant I was taking to the meds great and they were doing their job. So we couldnt wait to get there and see just how many we had. As she began the ultrasound her voice raised a little as she told us everything was just perfect. She turned the screen so I could see just how perfect. There on the black and white screen was the work and pain and prayer that we have been through these past few weeks. Out loud she began counting, 1....2...3...4...5...6...7...8..9..10. Oh wait, ...11!

Yep in my right ovary was 11 eggs, and in my left there are 5. We have 16 eggs to work with! As she counted all I could think of was the old hymn "Count your blessings" As each little egg was counted I began singing to myself:

Count your blessings, name them one by one,
Count your blessings, see what God hath done!
Count your blessings, name them one by one,
*Count your many blessings, see what God hath done.
[*And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.]

We have been praising the Lord all morning for this wonderful news. 16 eggs, yes 16 eggs!!!! WOW God is soooo good. We are just steps closer to making this miracle happen. I have to go back again on Monday to see how they are growing and to make sure my body is accepting the medicine. Then on Wednesday Mom and I both go to make sure we are ready for the next step. I then go back on Saturday to take the eggs out and get them fertilized. The transfer is set for Thursday January 26th and God willing we will put eggs in both mom and myself. WOW its here, its time, this is it!!! Thank you all for you prayers and kind words, we are so greatful for all the support we have been given. Pelase continue to pray for us as we wrap up the final stages!!!!!

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ: According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love: Having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will, To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved.  Ephesians 1:3-6

And I will make them and the places round about my hill a blessing; and I will cause the shower to come down in his
season; there shall be showers of blessing.
Ezekiel 34:26

Behold, I set before you this day a blessing and a curse; A blessing, if ye obey the commandments of the LORD your
God, which I command you this day: And a curse, if ye will not obey the commandments of the LORD your God, but
turn aside out of the way which I command you this day, to go after other gods, which ye have not known.
Deuteronomy 11:26-28

Wednesday, January 4, 2012 we go.......

Today was the first doctors appointment of this process. We went today to get blood work and and ultrasound. Everything looks amazing, my body is ready for this process and I just got the call that my blood work was perfect, which means that my body is responding to the medicine like it should! Praise Jesus! Looks like we are on our way!!! I'll start taking the medicines to produce the eggs on Monday. My medicines are being ordered right now, I'm just waiting for a call from the pharmacy saying they are being sent! This is when I get overwhelmed...when these meds get here I tend to panic because you lay out all these vials and needle and pills and you think ALLLLL this is going in me. But ALLLL that will help produce a baby!!!! gets overwhelming!!!

This is it, the time that we have waited and prayed for, our miracle is taking place and I couldn't be more excited! I'm so happy that this is all coming together and cannot wait to see what will happen next! Please continue to pray for us as we go into this phase of the journey! God is so good and His blessings are amazing!

We were introduced this week to a fund raiser, its online and it was design to help out groups or people who need financial help with certain things like, adoption or fertility. It is called Just love coffee, It's an awesome thing and we have just signed up.
You go to our link
and order coffee. Half of the proceeds go to Charlie and I to help with expenses. It is such a great thing because these people also helps missions and they know how hard it is for people who are have fertility problems. We were blessed to be introduced to this website! People are always looking out for us and trying to give us different ideas to help out. We are so thankful for these people!
So if you are in need of some coffee, go to this website and buy some, for the missions and for us!!!!